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Well im not very good at updating this thing..But yea um..Things have been alright, not to bad at all, just hanging out for the last days of summer </3 Yea school starts tomorrow..weird, doesnt even feel like it! Kinda fustrating. But its all good, cuz its my senior year, and hopefully it will be as fun as everyone makes it out to be!! I went shopping today, I havent gone shopping in so long, I dont like it too much, cuz I dont like all the people, and they never seem to have my sizes, ha! Well I think im not very good at updating cuz I just really dont have too much to say..would make sense. ha Well I guess I will go get my stuff ready for school..ekk. Have a good one! :)

So. School is about to start soon. Summer just went by a little to fast for me! I got my schedule yesterday...

I have : 1-1 English-Russel(who will change!!)
1-2 Psychology-Smith
1-3 Trig-McCreary

2-1 Ed-Intern-Laumann
2-2 Finance-Kayser
2-3 Va/Us Government-Laumann

So thats what my days will be consisting of for my *SENIOR* year! Thats one thing I am quite stoked about!

Well otherwise..things have been pretty good...I havent hung out with whitney in a while </3 I miss her! Me and Brett are dating now :) quite excited about that one too! Cheerin is going ok. We just got through with our rec clinic for the little girls, it went well. I just dont like the beginning caosis (sp) Once school starts it should go by a little smoother! Well...I really dont have that much more to say so I think Im gonna go take a nap..My favorite thing to do! <3 comments <3 .Much Love.

Things have been pretty decent lately..

Today, we had a suprise birthday party for my sisters 8th birthday. It was cute. Except for the fact I had to get up early and go to Wal-Mart and Party City for my mom.

---tryouts are TOMORROW...Its so nerve racking..B/c Its my last year I can cheer, and I cant tumble, there is only 5 of us who cant out of everyone trying out for Varsity! Yikes. Well all I can do is my best and give it what I got, and if thats not enough for her, then I guess I wont be cheering! Im excited to get all ready though b/c our outfits are just too cute, but too bad we are the freakin LAST group to go...#11! ekk. We are having practice today at 4 so hopefully that goes well!

Im gettin pretty good at driving my car...I guess ha. Cept for the fact I can do fine on big streets, just not in drive thrus...so I stalled out THREE times, and peeled out and burnt rubber and the ppl stuck there heads out the window and were lookin for what the hell happened!! Yea...that was me! :(

...so school starts soon!? I don't know how stoked I am about that one even though your *senior* year is suppose to be the best.. Let's hope mine is at least!

So me and *BA* Have been hangin out for the past few days. <3 Thats gone well! :)


Well I guess Im gonna go rest, now that my house is quite and I dont have a bunch of 8 yr olds runnin around screamin!!!


<3333much love

So last night was great times! <33333

I LOVE WHITNEY MATHERS!
Me and Whitney took a romatic evening out to dinner at TGIF's ha..And had the most annoying waitress ever...
....sorry you can't order off the kids menu
...But my big sister is takin me out for my 12th birthday!
haha

Then we THOUGHT we werent gonna have anything to do..so we shared stories in the TGIF parkin lot, while hanging out in the car. Well, then we made a lil pit stop to Food Lion to buy some gum and cosmo..for later that night! hah
Then we went to aj's house and chilled with Matt, Craig, Dennis, Zimmer, Phil, Landon, and AJ..i have to say they are very violent people..hah.. It was fun though..then we left about 12:15ish...And unfortunatly missed a very important phone call </3 ha ...So when we got home I was gettin a lil text messaging going on...<333333333333333333333333333 while we read a lil cosmo..then soon talked online til 3 giving craig all these cosmo test..I must say he's a wild one..hahah! But anyways, me and whitney had to get up this morning for church. So we woke up about 8 and ate pancakes, and got ready...Now Im home, and about to take a nap..much needed sleep.. I have practice at 5:30---hopefully we can get some stunting action going on today. If the rain holds out. Hopefully I can hang out with an --old friend-- <3 I miss Stephanie </33333333 But she comes home today :o) Well enough yakin for today...Im out Comments <3333

Well, the summer is ok. Not as great as I expected. Sucks, school is about to start is a lil over a month. </3 Not to thrilled about that one! and WOW i will be a senior how scary is that.. Its like unreal I just remember being a freshman thinkin I had a long ways to go...Why, time flys in a blink of an eye. I went to the beach today with Stephanie and Whitney.. It was fun. Cant wait to go back Tuesday--Whit. ha! I cut my ankle on a body board today, ouch, it stings a little. :/ Me and Stephanie got into a lil argument tonight </3 I dont like that at all. Stephanie is like my best friend and it hurts when we argue. Steph--I know you have a lot that goes on, I mean with nw,ya know, and I wanna be able to talk to your so bad about it, but Im just scared and everytime I do, its like its meaningless. I know you deserve a lot more, and you may not realize that right now, and I wish there was a way I could help you out of the lil bind that your kinda in. It sucks. Well Im here if you wanna talk and you know that... <3333 Cheerin---wow, everything is good NOW. ha. Well everything is coming together, except my backhandspring, I dont understand why Im so stupid and cant get it. It would be a miracle if I got it by tryouts! I really wanna have it cuz I think it would boost my confidence level a lil from zero. Im trying I guess thats all that counts right now. um, im excited for the dance <33 yay! ;) I miss a few things that I use to have. It sucks that I cant just call and have a normal conversation, and just be regular friends. </3 I wanna be able to hang out and talk often. I guess its right, you cant have what you want. Seems like I never get it though! Guess I just have to be patient, and wait for whats down the road. Well i suppoe that Im done rambling on...I will go see what I can find to do... bye!

Ha well I dont get around to writing in this thing much anymore.

Well, Last night I went to coldstones with Whitney. I just adore her. <3 Then we came home and then Jenny, Caitln, and Whitney S. came and got me and we went to some party. Stayed there for a few then went to some other kids house, with not as many people. Ummm hmm..I saw too many -pretty guys- Talk about ocean blue nowadays! hum um um...I miss Jenny and the crew, ha. We had so much fun. We are all suppose to go to the beach after Caitln and Jenny get out of church!! <333333333333333333


Sky----clear up!



******HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!!! ******

Two more days of school..How great does that sound. So I hear my Chemistry exam is kinda hard. GREAT. I need a D on it at least to get a B for the class. Wouldnt that be nice! :)

Well my boo stephy, is finally off restriction, and how exciting is that. I <3 her. And now she is in our tryout group, that means fun times this summer baby! hah! Well I wonder what kinda great things we can plan for this weekend.. ha jk everyone!

Well I had a good time two weekends ago, and I wish I could go back to old times. Maybe one day cuz good things were being said. I got a fortune cookie last Sunday that said "good things are being said about you" what a conseidence..It doesnt matter whats being said about me really.. only by one person is what i care! anyways...


I went to tumbling tonight... man do I wanna be able to tumble sooo bad. gr...i will get it thats all i have to say.


well I think im gonna go rest, even though im not gonna go to school tomo. hehe. and go to my sisters party at her school ha. well ttyl


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ha. not to much has been going down. I have nothing to do tonight cuz Steph is grounded </3 and I dont have my sidekick..ha I went and visited some old friends last weekend <3 what fun. They def. brought a smile to my face, and brought back some memories. :o) I was hoping to go and see them again but...I dont think thats gonna happen tonight. Oh well, maybe another. School is almost out!! yes, how exciting is that! Im gonna be a senior and graduate next year, I dont know what to think!! I got a 494 on my chemistry sol, and I got a 499 on my History one! Both ONE question away from passed advanced....stupid stupid me! ha Im really freezing right now, prolly cuz I am doing much of nothing </3 grr it makes me angry when theres nothing to do! Well I guess I will just go and see what happens.... ttyl <3

Well its always seem as if i, S u c k so bad maybe we can say...
grr. Nothing ever goes my way. Hm..

Things have been ok lately I guess, Just passin the days til school gets out <3 I think things could get better once school is over.. Who knows.

Im tried of trying...why, no one cares </3 Well it looks as if im gonna have a pretty boring summer, there hasnt been much to do lately, and summer is not even here.. I got cheerin tryout stuff, could be fun, but maybe not. I dont know much anyone...w/e man. Im just here, doing what I do. Can't never have what you want. Hm..im kinda confused like steph is right now. But not the say way i guess.. Me and Steph went and did some errands she needed to, and ate at fazolis <3 I love her! Good times girl.... (stayed with her for a week, ha) Well im just ready for summer to roll along, so i cant do and get into some trouble....BRING IT ON!! <3 Kerah

Everything always turns out for the better.

Today kinda sucks. Not much to do. Its gonna rain, so we cant go the the beach like planned. </3 Well Im gonna go take a shower ;) Ttyl! <3 Kerah

Well way to start my weekend....

I decided not to go to Haterras with my family, and stay the week with steph, today its self went pretty good til the evening rolled around... Well first off when i went to get all my luggage out of the car, i grabbed the wrong bag, i grabbed my moms, instead of mine! Great just Great...So now I have to do all this dumb stuff to get it to her...


The worst part, is I dont even know why I try to care, or make things cool with people. It always gets thrown right back in my face, and its just like a slap in my face, I dont know who's word I can trust anymore, Its everyone not just a certain guy. Its all of them...Where do these girl find these great amazing nice guys who never do a wrong thing...Its impossible I swear, and the thing it I dont get mad very easlily and I dont really care what someone is doing as long as Im not gettin hurt in the long run, but when you thought there was something...and then there wasnt...its just like wow. How can you change your mind, within less than 24 hrs. Im 17 just wanna find someone to be with and have fun with and someone to be able to talk to and just be there for you for whatever you may need them for, w/o gettin hurt, but cherishing the time together...Not necessarily settle down or anything but you know. It just upsets me more than anything, that people can lie straight to my face, then just bascially slap me in the face. WoW. How come I try to be the nice person that doesnt do wrong and yet, it always turns out bad, But NO im not gonna stress this, b/c its out of my hands, and obviously i dont mean to much. But Its all good, cuz one day someone will come along the lines, that will just be there for me. And this all had to of happened for some reason or another, something good will come out of it, sooner or later!


Well Im going to the Beach tomorrow, so I gotta get some rest so, hope you have a great day/night! <3


Kerah

Too bad it had to be this way...Wish I could turn back time....


~ Im twisted cuz one said of me is tellin me that i need to move on, but on the other side i just wanna break down and cry.~


CANT HOLD ME DOWN... :o)

Well today wasnt all that bad after all....I mean it could of been better but, hey...Ok well I offically failed my first chemistry quiz this semester with a 50, great just great...I got kicked out of my 3rd block and hopefully i dont get written up, but I cant help it that a teacher is gonna give me a E on my report card, when NO ONE does anything in there. Yea well she is a spy anyways so who cares...We had cheering after school today for the first time in a while...WOW am I OFFICALLY -OUT OF SHAPE- man, do I need to start working out! It all just reminded me of how much time cheering takes up...</3 cant even do it! haha!

Well I have a butt load of work to do..so I guess I will be headed out on my way....


3 DAYS!!!!  Beach for a week!
Steph is GONNA come too!!!!!!! yay!


<3 Kerah

Ok well, maybe I just think to deep, and negative sometimes. Maybe I didnt ruin Everything but..You know when you just get in that really low slump, and you feel like could anything else go wrong, well yea. I guess you can kinda say thats where i was. Well I talked to a friend, which is in the same exact boat. Kinda weird. But It might all work out in the end who knows. If not then there's a reason for everything. Sometimes we just might not know why. But Im doing a lot better, well actually almost great. But I guess I just wish for the best. I mean what else can ya do...hahah.... well have a great day!


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Well, now that I just ruined everything that could ever be...what do I do?

Im so confused, Im such a fuck up dude, I dont even know what do to with myself. Everytime I try my hardest to make everyone else happy I always do something with my damn attitude, and jealous to ruin everything...I wish I could be pretty like every other girl in GB and Hickory...I guess I always just give to much. I dont know what to do, Im always so confused. and I always seem to get tied up in so much. I wish everything could just be they way they were a couple days ago.<3 but thanks to good ol' kerah they arent. </3 Life gets so complicated sometimes, but I guess its just what we make it..I just want to have that someone there to talk to about everything, there to comfort you whenever you may need. And to appreciate you for you. ya know. I dont know...I guess I will just go and I dont even know... </3

Well Im talkin to the most meaniest person at this second...grr.. just shoot me...haha jk

This saturday is gonna suck...I gotta leave for a week for hatteras, it will be kinda cool in a way though....



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SCHOOL IS dumb, i cant wait til summer...
I dont have much to say im going...bye

Well havent wrote in here in the longest time....I guess I just dont like to get around to it that much...

Well things have been going pretty ok. Better than normal I could say. But who knows how long that will last. Sometimes I just start to doubt myself, cuz things seem to good to be true...I have this big trust issue too, and I dont know why, and I really would like to trust ppl...especially you...

Everytime I think things are just get good, I feel that something is coming along to just bring that down...I would really like to see how this turns out but I dont like to be the one suffering in the end. ya know? I really wanna go on with this... I adore you! I just want to be able to go places and  have fun and do crazy things w/ someone that will charish it as much as i would. It's so great to have that ONE person that you always can turn to for whatever your needs may be. But it seems as if I never come across someone who wants the same. Maybe Im just thinkin to much, or thinkin to deep or something. I'm not sure. What even made me start thinkin about crazy stuff like this...who knows.....Well I guess God will just lead me threw everything and if things dont work, then there must be something else better ahead. But I would like if whats ahead now..could be something amazing.


Well I think Im gonna go clean my room, so me and Whitney can go off today and have fun <3

Much Love

Your what I want. Lots of Smiles.

OK so Miss Hickory was great last night!

Sam~ Your an AmAzIng dancer, i didnt know a human could bend in ways like that hahah!

Alicia~ Girl you just know you rock, and your soo cute! Lots of Love to you girl!

Bobbi~ Way to get miss congeneality (sp¿) ANd your dance was sweet, you rock my world bobbi!

Great job to the rest of the girls and guys it was a great show!

Yea everything is ok!!!

Yea, so please tell me why whenever I try my hardest to be nice to everyone, I always get repaid in a shitty way...yea, hmm...thats a little questionable...friends, fuck that, no such thing...screw everything, I give up, SERIOUSLY one of these days im soooo going anti-social, cuz then I wouldnt ever have to worry about anything or anyone, just keep everything to myself...Yea well I guess I just wont leave NICE comments about ppl anymore when they are just gonna make me feel as low as ever, and like a piece of shit, and like I dont even matter..yea uh huh, im over everyone!

(not literally, but ya get it)

anyways, I guess nothing great has really gone on lately...no highlights of my life...just pretty boring...--------------------like that...haha!

Yo gangsta kid....smile now!! hahahah! :o)
"gangsta girl"

Well anyways I think I will go and ponder some...have a nice day.... smile :o) bye


<3 much love

I dont really like to update that much, because no one ever reads em', but thats ok!

Life= a lil boring right now, no real climax at this point, but thats quite alright!

School is just too much drama!!!! thats it!!

Im stoked im suppose to be hanging out with Alicia tomorrow, and meeting one of her friends, can we say exciting :o)!

Im going to a tumbling class tonight with Whitney and Paige, yay how fun...

THe weather it finally getting nice!! that makes me happy


much love <3